Best Friend

They say that true friendship lasts forever. That really makes me have my doubts about me and my best friend. I personally feel as if I would do anything for her. That I would go to the end of the world for her but she isn't prepared to do the same thing. Whenever we meet up we always meet up at her house, because she's hungover and can't go out. Because she had a great time the night before and didn't invite me 'cause she needs to spend time with this group of other people. So when I do see her it's in the hours she can't do anything else anyway scared of vomiting of collapsing. So as a good friend I go to hers. It's not nice though when I have to make all the effort.

She never has any money to go out and do fun stuff with me, like go out for a meal or go and see a film. She does have money to go out and spend it on a ridiculous amount of alcohol and even drugs (yes Holland get over it) every single weekend. Besides that she's taking a year off, meaning more partying, seeing me less, spending more money on other stuff and having me around even more when she feels like shit. So that's what I'm good for? So you can complain to someone when you're feeling shitty because your parents don't listen to you anymore?

I've been trying to get over this problem for months and maybe even a year now. When I left for England we were the biggest buddies ever, we though the same about everything. Now I'm back I just don't feel we're getting on like we should. Whenever we see each other she's always talking about herself, every now and then (but only when I've got big news like a break up or a big fight) she lets me speak for 5 or 10 minutes. Other than that I have to put up with crazy stories about how drunk she got this time and what she did with guys or what kind of drug she had taken.

Will be continued...